Do you know what it’s like to be afraid to go home at night? Have you ever experienced how it feels to be forceably deprived of your sleep every night of your life? Do you know how it feels to be on your knees crying and begging the one you love, and who is supposed to love you, to stop hurting you; forcing you to do anything he/she wants you to do by threat of no sleep and fear of what may happen to you, or your children, if you refuse? Do you know what it’s like to be isolated from all of your friends and family and to learn that they have been told horrible lies about you from your spouse? Do you know what it’s like to feel like you are nothing but a piece of meat in the eyes of the one you love? Do you know what it’s like to be used constantly? Have you ever been called stupid, lazy, or even a bitch in front of your own children? Is every tear that comes out of your eyes laughed at by your spouse? Do you know what it’s like to be constantly desecrated and humiliated in front of your children, friends, family, and in public?
I do… And so do many other women & men that are the victims of domestic violence and abuse.
This is why I have created Standing Up And Moving On. I am taking a stand against abuse! I refuse to be a victim any longer. I refuse to let my abuser continue to hurt me and try to control me!
DO NOT try to tell me that I did not do my part or that I had anything to do with the breakdown of my 15 year marriage, because you have NO idea what you are talking about! Most of all, you have no right to judge me – not for who I am, or was, and not for the actions I am taking now. I am, and always have been, a good, hardworking, and loving person. The reason I kept going back and forgiving my spouse for 15 years is because I listened to people who told me “marriage is forever and you must sacrifice to make it work”. I believed them. Yes, this is correct to an extent, but it does not mean you have to sacrifice your soul, your happiness, your health, your safety, and everything that makes you who you are!!
I know what true love is and what I experienced was far from it. Save your judgements for yourself. I know who I am and I am proud of what I have become. I will fight for victims rights and I will continue this fight until the day I die. There is a lot that needs to change in this country! I may only be a small piece of the pie, but I plan to make myself well known!